Finding Myself

exactly that : mine, private, and really a life.

My NEW BLOG June 19, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — inherownfantasy @ 2:40 am

the not so serious me , u can catch up with

but i will still keep this wordpress updated even not as frequent as the new one

& its up to you guys to update the link or not . i rili dont mind aite

http://archaicdoodle.blogspot.com

thnx and happy stalking :)

 

 

BIRTHDAY WISHES June 12, 2008

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i would like to wish my friends who celebrate their birthday this month;

11th June 2008 - 22nd year old Dayangku Nor Zafirah

11th June 2008 - 22nd year old Marlisa ( my former classmate back at TunAZ)

12th June 2008 - 22nd year old Rohaya

A Friend is like balloon that helps you soar high

A Friend is like a cake adding sweetness to your life

A Friend is like a bunch of flowers , beautiful and warm , spreading happiness and smile

A Friend is the best gift, one could have

Caring, Understanding, Nice & True

Just Like You Are…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :)

 

My Getaway June 10, 2008

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from 31th mei til 9th june

ive been away for my getaway after completing my studies at MMU

31st mei til 3rd june, ive been staying at my mother’s longhouse at beboleng atas, betong to celeb gawai dayak

and after that until 9th june, ive been busy helping my cousin’s preparing for her wedding at kpg jerijeh, tjg manis

lots and lots of sweet and bitter memories i have endured.

what i gained thru this getaway is that im able to gather with my family members

which is very hard to meet them coz we stay at different places around sarawak

and also to update news, cousins with newly born babies, grown up nephews and niece, etc

for gawai celebration , i successfully improved my proficiency in iban language,

so does my melanau accent, cousins & other family members impressed with my way of talking laa..

seb baik….fuhhh~

at jerijeh also, i became seafood addictor. everyday i ate fish, crabs, lobster … aiyooooooooo

no wonder im sick now…… maybe because of the weather , im not sure, or its bcoz of the food i consumed

btw it is, sudah lama tidak demam. bila demam, sakit betol rasa badan ini. haiyo

when me & my family arrived at bintulu , the next day  a pal from MMU textmsging me saying the results are out, so then i checked , and am very grateful for passing all the papers . cumulative gpa’s also increase. alhamdulillah. (berkat pergi library tiap hari kot) lol

so next what im going to do? me also dont know…. just seat back and relax at home , watch tv and surfing…yeah not to forget, coz im jobless now , remember?

convocation is going to be held on august 10, 2008 at cyberjaya…. and im now trying to lose some weights so that i will look stunn or at least fits well with my dress that i will wear on that day.

lotsa pictures i have uploaded at my flickr. so dont hesitate to check on it ya .

till then. less calories is all i need now. kekaseh hati takde takpe . YEAH RIGHT!!! NOT!

xoxo.

 

HOME SWEET HOME May 30, 2008

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akhernya me sampai jugak kat umah me ….

touched down at bintulu airport dalam kol 4pm cengitu la hari rabu haritu

hari tu jugak bebdey mai besties nhaddya , HEPI BEFDEY ONCE AGAIN , kek

tua dah kau hihihi

btw, how old am i rite now owh? ohhh still 21… heheh ngesak atiiii dhya jak madah gia

apa pa pun its good to be home again, kemas2 rumah

banyak stuffs baru ada di rumah kali tok

masok2 jak kejut jak nemu mcm2 jak brg baru di beli parents me

apa gik me, on jak la nak

but yalah tek , pemintaan nak ada desktop derimpun ya lah maseh lom tertunai agik

but mommy madah riya she’ll soon buy for me to share with dad…

but still i want that computer in my room kelak aaaaaa~~~~

n then again , about my persian cat itew, rupenye 31st tok baruk nya keluar ke bumi

so basically i have to wait another 2 months then only can keep that cat

alahaiiii~ reaally cant wait laaaaa

apa gik cerita. ohhh yes…

tomorrow me and my family will be going for a holiday

first , to celebrate gawai at my mom’s long house… lamak gilaaaa dah sik balit umah pjg eyyy

sgt rindu… promise i’ll take photos for you guys… tapi upload rah flickr jakla oooo hihi

n then right after the celebration , terus attend nikah my cousin at jerijehhhhh!

jumpa my cousins n nieces yg lamak tok nangga dari gambar ajak…. hehehe

cant wait for that too…

after all that excitement enjoying my holidayssss…..then the nightmare part plak

which is to wait nervously for my final exam results to be released….

but of course, why must i think of that first , after all i deserve to enjoy my holiday to the max

after what had happened before…. which is more fucked up that anything else.

…..

i know i know….  what i will face kelak…

mesti tersalah cakap bahasa mcm salu .,,,then all my cousins and aunties & uncles will laugh at me

pegi rumah panjang kakar melano

pegi kpg jerijeh kakar iban

heyhhhh pa kesss….

this complication will only happened when you dont always implement neither of these language at home

when im at home , my parents only talk in bahasa sarawak & english

so when do i have the time to improve those two language then????

they’re not suppose to blame me at all for my confusion and my mistakes for ruining their language

hihihi. im not that bad what… i still can understand and talk abit of their language

that is whyyyy! i will definitely ensure my children (in the future la) to use all those language when they live with meee…… no excuses to learn… but …come to think again….who will teach them, i aint a pro myself

hahahahah…. there it goesss again… tooo many obstacless to actually master your own mother tounge

sekpalah next time

k lah i have to doo housechores after this .parents will be back for lunch

so i cannot online lama2 nanti kang kene POKPEKPOKPEK sampai esok pun tak habis

till then kawan2

selamat hari gawai, gayu guru gerai nyamai

and congratulations too to my cousins nizaha whom will soon get married

(langkah bendol ini budak. kakak nya pon belom kawen lagi huhu)

and hope u guys enjoy ur holiday, kalo tak holiday , enjoy ur day lah k

dada~~~

 

 

 

Finally.. May 26, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — inherownfantasy @ 10:05 am

MMMMMMMMMM

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn’t comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn’t seem so bad
It’s the best that I’ve ever had
Give my love to him finally

MMMMMMMM

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn’t matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I’ve Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

[chorus]
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn’t seem so bad
It’s the best that I’ve ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

MMMMMMMM

Finally, Finally

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn’t seem so bad
It’s the best that I’ve ever had
Give my love to him finally

Ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally

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the most significant song for the moment ..

me wanna say thank you so much to all me friends at MMU especially my besties.

you know who you are…

after all that we’ve been through …. i realized that i’m luckiest person to have you guys around me

eventhou  friends come and go, but the one that stays should be given the highest credit

me seriously not in a mood to post an entry. but after this kinda hard to go online

so just wanna grab this opportunity

to say THANK YOU once again. THANK you to the lectures …

thank you to kedai mamak , mcd , kfc , le garden , segala jenis kedai yg membesarkan me

ape lagi ek?

hurm wtf how can i forget! THANKS TO MY HOUSEMATES yg rockkkkkk~ huhuhuhu

n then..

me tau david archuleta tak menang american idol

tapi hepi sesangat stacy “ops! terlebey sudah” champion af. kesian farah dpt mo 5

leh caya ker????? nubhan nomo 3 … huhu malas la nak pikeeeee dah

asalkan riz dpt nomo la hihi

me nak stop typing dah ni…

dengar jerlah lagu fergie ni then ingat me lah

sape2 yg tau peristiwa tak menarik sblom ni.. mesti tau nape me choose lagu fergie ni

seriously tak de idea lah…

k lah k lah

babaiiiiiii melakaaaaaa … jumpa lagi bila result dah kuar nanti huhuhuhuhuhu

p/s: THERE”S LIFE AND A LIVING AFTER REJECTION. :)

 

Surprise from MOMMY!! May 16, 2008

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received 1 sms from mom early this morning

” Askum. Dah Baca offline msg mak? pls spend the money wisely till 25th tau.

and 1 more thng, wud u agree 2 help look after/take care of a kitten if i buy 1?”

ngeeeeeeeeeeeeehhehehehehehe.

its been a long long long time agooooooo since i owned a cat

and until now i cant afford to letgo off memories with my MIMI. :( poor mimi..

and until then… my parents has no longer interested in keeping a cat.

not until daddy buys his BIRD, i dont remember what type of BIRD neways. huhu

SO, basically im soooo head over heels right now. knowing mommy wanting to buy another kitten

and i promise, if mommy does buyed it. i will take care of that cat wholeheartedly !

{belom pape lagi ade org sebok dah tanye nak bagi name ape ;)) kehkehkeh)

i guess i have to wait until i figure out what color is that SPECIAL cat .

at last…. a new member of the family !

cant wait to shout out - KINI KAMI BEREMPAT !!! HEHE

 

What Happens In Vegas? May 15, 2008

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i saw this movie just a couple of minutes before i post this entry.

as im on our way ( watched with yong) back home, i just couldnt tell how eager i am

to post a review regarding this comedy romantic movie

well, basically what most of my pals would do before they catch a movie in cinema

is that they will check on the details of the movie itself at IMDB.com

but it turns out for me that ive checked the details at the databases right after i watched it

hehe.

come to my surprise that the rates given for this movie was just 4.6?? out of 10???

maigoshhhh what has gotten the viewers mind???

this movie is effin awesome la weyyy… cannot tahan knowing the rates only 4.6!!!

maiyamaaa…

in conclusion * sbb malas dah nak tulis pepanjang*

i loved this movie v v much. very meaningful

lessons that ive learned from this screening is that

1) pple tend to not appreciate things until its gone …

2) divorced is simply not the last resort for an unsuccesful marriage.

so appreciate with what you have now. no matter what ..

no matter what lies beyond you… no matter how bad u have to sacrifice

or

how hard you have to try

just learn how to appreciate ok.

and as for me , i have to learn how to appreciate things that i always tend to ignore.

oh yeah, for more info about this movie, starring the hotness stuff - ASHTON KUTCHER & CAMERON DIAZ

feel free to visit WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS 2008

btw, paper GLOBAL OPERATIONS MANAGEMENT & GLOBAL MARKETING sudey done.!

im now relieved than ever even ada 3 paper lagi menunggu. caiyok!!!! :D

 

Impressive Post From Yong. May 15, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — inherownfantasy @ 9:32 am

Macam-macam Melaka

Melaka is weird when it comes to the names of the places

It’s like they love to combine 2 or more things together and make it as a “kampung” name

But the combination most of the time turns out sound funny

Kampung Ramuan China Besar - can u get the connection there??

Durian Daun - why not daun durian? alamak, wrong grammar suda!!

Batu Berendam - the batu is taking it’s own sweet time

Kampung Parit Derhaka - since when parit can be derhaka? i thot only Tenggang n Pekan

Kampung Ayer Resam - the water is doing adat resam..i guess

Tangga Batu - yup,they wanna tell the world only in Melaka the stairs is made from stone

Kampung Tengah Padang - the villagers always ready to play football

Sungai Udang - simple one, a lot of udang in that sungai long long long time ago

Kampong Ayer Tawar - they shud complete the series..tawar,masam,manis,masin

Ayer Keroh - oooo, the finale of the series, the water become keroh

Kampung Ayer Putih - season 2!

Kampung Bangsal - the people in this village live in garage

Kampong Parit Singkat - auwwww, seksi!

Bukit Bulat - round hill

Kandang - the villagers love to stay in kandang with lembu n kambing

Kampung Solok Mempedal Ayam - hahaha..watdehel??

Kampung Paku - Pontianak used to roam freely in this kampung

Kampung Ulu Melaka Pindah - nomad species

Alor Gajah - refers to a sexy female elephant’s private part(up) who use to live here

Kampung Pengkalan Rama - no,not butterflies, the ketua kampung name is Ramasamy

Kampung Padang Kerbau - lotsa lotsa buffaloes

Kampung Hailam - the people live here love mee hailam&nasi goreng hailam

Kampung Bukit Meta - yup, they love to watch Metacafe

Nyalas - nyala in plural form

Kampung Tanjung Laboh - this is an alim kampung, the people always wear tudung labuh

Kampung Pulau Samak - lots of pigs, but the Kg tanjung laboh villagers came n samak the place

Kampung Sungai Petai - the fish love to eat ulam especially petai

Kampung Padang Jambu - must be the padang looking a lot like Dafi. tak baik punyer!!!!!!!

lots more weird names in Melaka, try google if u dun believe me
and lastly,
“favourite” place in Melaka……….

Bukit Beruang - used to have lots of bears(tipu!) but actually the real pronounciation is Bukit Ber-wang bcoz it’s one of the richest hill in Melaka. From the business Money Making University..

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saya percaya post yong kali ini diilhamkan oleh saya. ADA APA DENGAN MELAKA..

will be continue :)

 

Goody Lucky May 14, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — inherownfantasy @ 1:46 am

best of luck to all mmu students yg sedang berfinal

best of luck to myself whom going to undergo my first paper this evening at 230pm

best of the best of luck in  da world. :-) gambatte !

 

Jason Mraz Feat Colbie Caillat - Lucky May 13, 2008

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Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

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i have been the luckiest person when i met you . xoxo